Gary's Life - Part 1: History

Dear bloggers,

I'm sick and tired of the internet. It seems people there mistunderstand me even more. They don't know who I am, what I've become, but mostly, what I mean with certain things. Somehow people always act offensive around me. It makes me offensive.
Tonight, I'm clarifying it all. I'm going to write down my entire history. From front to back.

As a kid
When I was younger, I used to cry a lot, even when I was already four years old. There was almost not a day I didn't cry. When I was a baby my parents first thought I had a blockage near my eyes, but that wasn't the case. I always cried. And it wasn't just things like falling, it was everything. Maybe I am a little bit autistic. Maybe that's why I can understand people like me more.
Eventually I had to go to the psychiatrist, at the RIAGG. I was placed in the pediatric department, because they could help me more, naturally. I believe I never took it all that serious. Eventually I found out that mostly my youth played a big part in my dysfunctions in life, but that was only after a decade or so.
I went to school in a place where mostly kids of foreign origins. My parents were both born in Suriname and were Javanese (people who live in Java in Indonesia or who have their roots in Java), and in that time there weren't many people of that origin. So, naturally I was kind of special. I felt special anyway. But anyway, I was often afraid of certain kids.

My parents noticed that I was different than others. They actually had to adjust their lifestyle to me, despite having another child, my younger brother Anthony. We were and still are best friends. He relied on me, and I relied on him. We were each others support. Of course, we had friends, but there wasn't any friendship bigger than ours. Heck, even now we're the closest friends.
For me it wasn't really that hard to start a new friendship. I talked with people whenever I wanted, where ever I wanted. People liked me for who I was. They knew I was a little bit weird, but hey, aren't we all?

High school

After elementary school I went to something similar to your high school, we call it "middelbare onderwijs". I followed VWO on the "Zaanlands Lyceum". It wasn't a good period. It was then when I started to be shy. It was mostly the circumstances though. I don't want to go into too much detail, but I rarely grew up. I lost faith in friendships, I began to distrust people, I became a social wreck. I was about to quit therapy, when the thought hit me that I actually needed therapy, would I want to go on. But it was already too late. I left people who wanted to be my friend, and I said the wrong things.

Eventually I didn't pass fifth grade. I was forced to go to another school. That's when I started HAVO at the "Regio College". I finished it after a year, and the year following I finished VWO. But I already wasn't the Gary anymore I used to be. I knew it would return someday, perhaps not completely, but at least part would return.

Now

Currently I'm studying Medical Informatics at the "Universiteit van Amsterdam", and I still need to get things at order. It will be a hard task for me, but I eventually decided I should just go on without therapy. I shouldn't rely on it. I already lost a big part of my life. I never really grew up like normal kids did. In a way I'm more mature, but in many points I lack.

Anyway, that's all I wanted to say about my past for now.